long time no update.

i'm back in school....i guess its good for the most part?
the weather sucks, recreation is non existant and i hybernate in my room/apartment or at work.
thats pretty much my life in a nutshell.

halloween was fun- my roomate and others threw a party in our friends attic--it was cute. spent over 80 bucks alone for the party- not to mention the other money people put in.
but it was a success until the cops showed up at around 2:30am. fucking cops.

i was nicole richie, my roomate was paris hilton and mikey [her bf] was a gyno. good times good times.

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im excited to go home. 13 more days! pubbin it up like old times, seeing movies and just relaxing and chillin away from this place....its much needed.

Hurray for identity theft. This morning I logged into my eBay account and I noticed that on the left hand side next to the word "selling" was the number 7. I click on it and wouldn't you know, I was selling 7 items--only it wasn't me. Someone got into my account and started to sell items under my username, racking up over 300 dollars in seller fees.
I proceeded to contact eBay and with luck, they cleared the fees for me and found who entered my account without authorization.

The email address lisafetele@aol.com --beware of this name-- this person is the one who had their email plastered all over pages under my username-- dumbass. I'm tempted to IM them and curse the shit out of them....but then what good would that solve??

I did report the name to eBay-but no action is being taken against this 'person.'

Oh well- I got the charges off, my account back to a perfect 100%. I'm happy now.

On another note-
I'm anxious for school to start....not.

I want to go back up to Syracuse- not for the school part--just to get awayyyy! lol
I am having an awesome summer dont get me wrong-but if I have to live under my parents house any longer I think the funnyfarm will be a new residence for me.

well well.

i decided to join the air force rotc @ syracuse university. im sure most are wondering why I am deciding this and i have a valid answer.

i miss that type of lifestyle-- living on the air bases, traveling all the time, surprisingly the uniform [lol] and its weird. i was born and raised on air bases and traveled all around the united states- and even overseas with my family. i love the excitement and adventures that arise from day to day.
also itll help pay for college since well i don't exactly go to the cheapest school. lol.

whats great is i finally quit smoking all kinds and drinking...err drinking for right now.
ive been going to the gym pretty much everyday and ive never felt so great in my life.
i lost alot of the freshman 15 or freshman 500, whichever you prefer.

i think in the end i am making the best decision for myself.

cant wait to go back to 'cuse. bristol/ltown is getting wayyyy to boring and it just keeps getting worse as time passes.

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on sunday i went to krysta's grad party. had a blast. it was nice seeing her and everyone else.

this saturday, im going to my aunts in new jersey for my uncle's fiancee's surprise bridal shower.
going to be veryyy interesting.

work in the am.
must get sleep now.

so hmmm anyway...

life. one word that means so much.

its going very well..the summer is calm and collective. i've been working for most of it so far, but i suppose that's what college kids do.

Over the weekend, I used a sunless tanner for a social that I was attending and wanted to look tan. i did and it actually looked real. well now that its fading away, I look like someone with a skin disease...gah its very gross. apparently its supposed to disappear in a few days.
[praying] I hope it does.

wow..yeah. there's nothing else going on...work is super boring today. I've done nothing. Absolutely nothing. [yes thats a good thing, but life around here tends to get unactive after an hour....so i need something to do to preoccupy myself]

kelsey comes home saturday. yay.
i want crack chocolate. yum.

all the cool kids are doing it....

I'm at work right now...pretty bored really. It's the usual here, get in around 8, grab some coffee and start the day off by reading the news. Yes indeed how boring....but I am getting paid very well for sitting on my ass all day and typing up shit because my dad is too lazy to do it himself. Ah well.

Hmm Live 8 on July 2nd...exciting. I think the plan is to leave around 6am?

well i suppose ill get back to work.

blah. in the words of kate...boohiss.

sooo....
hmmm this summer is going by somewhat slow...which is good. i like the pace that its taking me. anyway i finally figured out the housing situation at school=a+
mmm work is fucking draining me out. having 3 jobs sounded good verbally, but physically its a draining mess.
i guess making money is whats important in the long run.

guy and i hung out tonight. did the usual- have a cigarette or two at the bristol warf, talk about whatever's on our mind,admire the delaware river and its surroundings, go back to his house and watch a flick-usually an indie film. good times, good times indeed.

hmmm nothing else is going on. l-town/bristol is beat--as always.
oh guy and i concluded that we live in a really bad B movie. we walked down the streets in bristol borough and looked at all the old stores- guy said that disneyworld did a better job of remaking an old town than bristol. the store fronts look so fake its scary. i mean what if we really are living in a bad movie...i know i know way too deep.
although it does have potential to be a cool collegetown with all the old homes/buildings...but thats about it.

okay well thats enough i suppose.

okay so its been forever since i've written in this thing...
well i survived my first year at syracuse. def a new experience for me and a new chapter in my life i can tell you that much for sure.

i changed alot throughout the year-from the end of high school -->summer--> to now... im a completely different person if i do say so myself.
i met amazing people who are great company and you can't go wrong with them. you just cant.

school is school pretty much-- i wish there was more i could say, but most of the people who are in college now who have livejournal have pretty much summed up how life is at college.
i drink and smoke on occasion now...not my every half hour "omg i have to have a smoke right now" ordeal...lol(trying to cut back)

life is speeding up and it feels like if it doesnt slow down, then i might lose it one day... lol

anyway, im working at blockbuster again this summer.
im also getting surgery done AGAIN on my right wrist... carpal tunnel syndrome... blah. dont want to do it but its just one of those things that i just have to do.

hmm what else.. summer plans are as they come. im not planning anything because usually something gets screwed up or alternative things happen... so im just living day by and day and enjoying life without a book in front of my face for 3 months.

i suppose this is enough babble for a tad bit....

I need to get away. Hence the subject of this entry.
I don't want to go back to bristol or levittown.
I need to get away from the dorms, away from the people here and just be on my own-
just for 5 minutes to regroup myself and think straight for once.

such stressful times....

i'm almost forgetting who I am or why I'm even here.

on a good note though-i'm finally going to a show up here.
i need it
itll help me get away-even for a few hours

so i got my tongue pierced!!

haha...it was one of those spur of the moment things...

damn you PITT!!! orangemen are soooooo much better--we were just tired that night....

anyway, school is going pretty well this semester-aside from the last semester conflict.

there really isnt much going on up here-the weather has been sunny and semi warm, and by warm i mean 13-25 degrees.

saturday night-wow what a night. it was the first time i drank since ive been here and i had a lot of fun.
made out with this kid in the snow- lol good times, good times.

right now im watching american idol. i cant believe im subjecting myself to this crap. the people who go out for this are so ridiculous...honestly why would you embarass yourself on national television?

its 1 degrees outside but feel like -13.
a little warmer than the usual.

i just walked back from my friends dorm......i hate the walk.
the walk is oooooober gay.

anyway school is great.
aside from a few bumps in the road school is fun.
classes are okay- a lot better than last semester

and hopefully ill actually do better this semester---i will i will
trust me i will

wow its starting to get cold here....
its catching up with syracuse...sort of.

im in an emotional dilema...
2 guys.
feelings for both.
cant decide on who.
guy 2 is the most obvious choice because of his characteristics
but then i want a part of guy 1 as well-i guess the DANGEROUS,ADVENTUROUS SIDE
what to do?
how do i act around either one?


love.
what is it really?
figment of our imagination i say.
it plays with our emotions
and tears our hearts
::sigh::

FINALS ARE CRAZY!!!

i dont think ive ever studied so much in my life....and all the times i studied in high school could not compare to the amount of studying ive done up here, in just a few days.

gah

finals=death.period.

tomorrow i have botany thurs i have math and fri morning i have my government and then im home for 4 weeks!!

ahh cant wait to forget about school and just relax and have fun.

wooo kate's 18th bday party saturday... what what nigga?

nothing else is happening up here other than SNOW!!!

its amazing the amount of drugs that circulate during finals.
caffeine seems to be my primary drug....lots and lots of coffee... :-)
(and red bulls)

well to everyone taking finals, good luck and see ya kids soon!

late late

So everything has been going well...im over mono...yah!

hung out with guy and kyle last night...

me and guy had a very interesting night...lol...one of the best since ive been here. haha lol

turkey day went well....its about damn time i have real food...cafe food gets tiring after the 100th time.

BIRTHDAY IN 10 DAYS!!! BIG 19!!!

nothing much is really happenin here in good 'ol bristol...

leave to go back to school on sunday... (cant wait!)

umm yeah so theres not much to talk about

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!

peace out

so yeah if mono couldnt get any worse...
i was hospitalized last night for my throat. it was so swollen that i couldnt breathe, swallow or drink anything...

Brian and Cathy came with me to ER and from there I passed out then woke up in some bed with IV's in me.
Holy Shit bro it was scary but i pulled through, obviously. Since the steroids decreased the size of my tonsils and I actually swallowed liquids and soft foods, they let me go. I mean I'm still on close watch and whatnot and my throat is still swollen, but since I have mono theres nothing really they can do about it...it just has to go its course. i apparently have strep on top of mono...so my tonsils are hardcore huge.... :-(

so that was my adventurous night in a hospital.

if things couldnt get worse...

i have mono! :-(
it sucks uber bad. i cant do anything. and i mean nothing.
so yeah i cant sleep right now...ive been sleeping all day long so now im up.

i cant wait to come home!!! the 23rd i will be back in PA

woo hoo!

well yeah thats it.

mono = sucks

I <3 SNOW!!!

it snowed for the second day here in syracuse. gah i love it.
yet i know that in about a month i will hate it completely.
i hope back in pa there will be a white christmas this winter. im praying for that.

i think that would just make my year.

wow its been awhile...

so yeah it started to snow here. it wasnt sticking, but it was snowing hardcore with the sun out and about...the weather up here is really weird.

so i had this ceremony last night for being native american-some multicultural thing. it was like graduation. we got this cloth as a symbol of ambitions and goals and dreams...i dunno the concept of it is cool.

so if you're in college, you need to hit this up

www.thefacebook.com

all the cool kids are on it

wooo only a few more weeks till turkey day! then i come home!!

there's not much happening here...same old same old. i mean its college...parties are overrated now since they all get busted by 5-0 and drinking in the room is bad now since I got busted by the RA's....
although getting busted hasnt stopped me yet...lol j/k

hey if anyone has a webcam lemme know. i just got one and i want to try it out....

I'm comin' home tomorrow!!!
I can't wait to come back this weekend.... i miss everyone and eveything!...
homecoming, friends, levittown...the works.
it's goin to be crazy, bitches.

dont get me wrong, i love it up here in syracuse,but sometimes you need a slice of home....



Who wants to pub it up after the football game?!?

well its official.
i have insomnia.
this is like the 5 night in a row that i havent slept. ah well its all good i suppose.
the floor that i am living on is haunted. some kids commited suicide in our study room. yea a little freaky if i do say so myself. i think i had a close encounterment earlier in the night.
a tad freaky as well. if you want to know what it was just ask. i dont really want everyone to think im completely insane.

I'm coming home for truman's homecoming! i heard that they are playing CR North...haha that would be so funny if we actually won.

nothing much is happening up here in syracuse. its cold as hell- colder than L-Town's last winter. and its only the 2nd week in october. its oober crazy.

oh new screen name.
emomama08

ill still have the old one, but i prefer to use the other. everyone up here thinks im emo because of the music i listen to. apparently they havent seen an "emo" kid.
whatev i thought it was funny..besides its time for change

alright well im out i guess...there's nothin really to say.

oh all i have to say is.... I have some stories to share with y'all...

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